Thoughts on the Holy Spirit.

Typically when I find out that there is something living inside me I want to know as much about it as possible, yet somehow my interest in the Holy Spirit who lives within me has lied dormant for some years.

I know the He is in there, there are times when I pray that I can literally feel Him in my fingertips.  There are times when I'm meditating on a specific verse or thought that I can see His light radiating out of my own chest. It's amazing how the Spirit of God can indwell so many people and suffer no division, but rather unify us on a level that only He Himself can reveal to us.

When I pray He is the first to hear, and He translates what I cannot express and delivers the message to the Father. He is the one who is within me and gives me the only goodness that I have within me, He wills me to do good and gives me the ability to follow through with it. The ONLY sin that cannot be forgiven is blaspheming Him, the Holy Spirit. Both the Father and the Son will overlook their own blasphemy to protect the Spirit, it's astounding. (BTW if you're freaking out about this sin, you haven't done it.)

I carry a bit of God within my person. I AM A VESSEL and not only a vessel but a Temple, set apart for God's purposes. Whether honorable or not, I am sealed by Him the Holy Spirit. How often have I grieved Him? My heart turns at the thought of how deeply it must have hurt Him to go with me where I've gone, to watch what I've watched and to hear me utter the sinful words I have uttered, and worse are the thoughts, the thoughts that I have not captured but let run free to muck up all of His work at putting my mind in order. Oh the wretched woman that I am! Who will free me from this body of death? Praise be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord who has loosed my chains and has showed me what freedom is really like. Every suffering and every grief is nothing to be compared with the taste of that freedom that is yet to come. Just the taste of it. Bless God for the joy that I will have when it comes into its full time and I can see Him face to face as a man meets with his friend. I'll be swimming all up in that joy!